its been awhile

Im working in a school as an allied educator. I am actually loving my job teaching, scolding and playing with the students here. I think that's my passion. There's this fire in me that wants to keep my dream alive. Next February i am going to apply for the 4 year degree course at National Institute of Education. I seriously cant wait for it. I will be staying in hall if i get in. totally planned everything just need my letter in already.

Its going to be a freakishly busy month in December. I have youth camp on the 6-8th December, Thailand trip with family on the 13-16th and Turkey with andy and daniel on the 16-25dec.

just another day

last night i had a run with my elder brother and it was actually fun. No kidding im having muscle ache or it was really tiring - it felt good. (: i would probably continue this. And my swimming - thanks to the rain i cant go swimming today. What my plan for today was to wake up in the afternoon, swim under the hot and bright sun - get alittle tanned. Then come home and start my assignments! But all i did was watch drama play itouch and did some power rider. Its his birthday and he is in camp. I know i shldnt be into it but it aint march yet. Though the whole march thing was a little dumb to begin with. Its like going to be a year and im still stuck thinking of him at home

what am i thinking seriously.
Fml haha

Im meeting jon now. Shuteppan (:

tired

Im so tired seriously. Busy doing up delon birthday book thn study cos of tests. Siannn. Seriously i need more sleep lol

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cramps

Cramps hurting like fuck - first blood
stomach not feeling well - double kill
headache - triple kill
feel like vomiting - MEGA KILL

it sucks lar seriously. all these symptoms just make me feel like dying.

i cant believe im going to plan another surprise birthday thingy for him. when am i going to learn and stop doing these things. i know i should stop but the more i want to stop the more i want to do stuff for him. this sucks. FML!!!

im doing up a birthday book for him too. why sia. why am i so stupid. seriously i need to get a life!



oh ya i might be getting a fulltime job soon. Sigma Aldrich. i hope i get it.!!

lazy afternoon

Rawr

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i finally got my HTC back. sucks that i thought i back up everything. end up i dont know how to put it back in. ):

nvm. Android Market can get it all back. (: (: (:

Some RANDOM thought

the worst thing about a crush is when you know he's married.

i think this sucks alot alot. cos sometimes you will just wished he werent married. or married only can divorce what! argh
then i look back and i myself crush a facilitator when i know he was married. He was extremely nice to me and only me. Whats not to love about this faci man. -.- The only thing blocking the whole teacher student relationship was - he's married. Sometimes i think that guys shouldnt be so nice to people of the opposite sex , it would cause misunderstanding and also when you are like married already!!! give people like me false hopes. hahahaha.
there was a point of time where i wanted to have him for my own. seriously. i thought of many ways to "try" break them up in my head. i was evil then but it all faded away lar. afterall he is untouchable why waste time now thinking of such things.

/updates
i have been studying alot recently that it scares the shit out of me.
i can give up big bang theory and start sitting at my desk and study for hours. [which is quite creepy cos i hvnt been doing that for a very long time]

raining

it has been raining and raining. the weather is so cold. anyways im meeting my secondary school frens now. and i seriously hate the weather!

finally?

I just want him out of my life now. I hope I can tahan not contacting him or anything. after all I deleted all my photos and memories of him. I need to reconstruct my life. do stuff that won't remind me of him. do things that makes myself happier and healthier.





i will need to start doing my qt daily. and re-order my life, my schdeule properly. (:

random

its tearing up my heart when im with you
but when we are apart i feel it too
and no matter what i do i feel the pain
with or without you

stupid turtle fong

my stupid turtle apparently blocked me on her stupid blog! idiot.