hot day

Today's weather is so hot!!! Went to Chinese Garden Mrt this morning and on my way there i saw Jasper. I think its him, due to the fact that he was staring at me from a distance. I cant believe i didnt recognise him immediately after all we were once together. Its good that i just pretend i didnt know him. Seeing him reminds me about us dating and quarreling and he doing stupid things to get my attention. All those are the past now though. I started thinking nowadays there is no such things as I love you forever, you are my only one, I hope we will last forever and all those shit. Couples getting together and breaking up in a split second. Looking back at all my relationships i guess nothing is forever. He might be deeply in love with you for a minute, the very next minute he isnt. And talk about i love you forever. Lol.

Seriously, Life is SO MUCH better when you decide you dont care

Coming back, the jurong place interview wasnt that bad. It was good i think. i kinda like the environment and the teaching style but one thing is damn fucking far. And with the stupid weather. Today's trip felt like ice melting also immediately under the big hot SUN.

So freaking HOT!

I met up with Cleon today for lunch. He went back to school for certain stuff and thus being at a near location [NTU and Jurong area] we decided to meet up for branch. On my way to orchard, i saw this group of children playing at the playground. It reminded me about my childhood days when nothing seems to be a problem. You can run jump shout scream stare and no one thinks you are weird. Whereas at our age, whenever you decide to do something you got to think through and decide if it is going to destroy your reputation. I really want to run jump shout scream to nothing and feel happy. At least when i was a kid i was really happy not having to worry about anything.

I waited super long for the next interview and got tired. I dont want to find a job, I want to just be a student again. Studying is definitely more easy thn working. When i was younger, i couldnt wait to grow up and fly and not study. But now thinking about it, i dont want to grow up. It a hassle to grow up. you got to be independent, you got to find a good job and you got to worry about the future. It really sucks.

I JUST WANT TIME TO STOP.

Oh ya i went swimming ytd with Gaius. It was fun, wanted to go again today when Joel called. But i was busy fighting Boss with Ken and Delon. Suckcock man. seriously. lol.

Shall blog again soon.

Sophia in the green room