green room

I seriously need to get my feelings right

whatever i do
i feel that something isn't right
i want to run away
or just die..
LOL..

I guess im just really confused!
I dont know what i really want
or who i really like..

Am i pushing away those that i should keep dear to my heart?
I myself dont know..

I really hope i can just hide somewhere
somewhere where no one knows who i am
or even somewhere where i cant be found.
Thats crazy but
i really want that.. LOL

I dont really like going to school
or even leaving my house

Trying to avoid
but its difficult,
Nothing is easy when it comes to the heart issues.