moment

I finished my FYP report like finally.

ROAR to the world.

haha! anyways Lab management i got A again.

i woke up today by the alarm of my phone. Off it cos last night finish FYP report, thought that today no school! baby sms and ask if i woke up already. then macdelivery sms me at 9am. I woke up read baby's sms and then close my eyes thinking that he woke up early when there aint any school. After 5 secs i realise that there is school today!

damn. bathe then rush out
cab to school.

Wishful thinking of me to think that there aint school after finishing my report. =X

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When a Man doesnt love a Woman anymore
- He dont care when she is hurting
- He lets her walk away without saying a word
- He leaves her there and leaves the place
- Doesnt go after her when she is mad at him
- Hurts her but dont bother

my heart is hurting. Why is it that everytime we quarrel i must be the one to initiate to settle it. You will just leave it there - leave it hanging. Im not goig to do that anymore. I had enough of all this. It isnt the first time you left me at the mrt myself. It isnt the first time you let me cry on the mrt alone. It isnt the first time you broke my heart. The place where you jabbed me has a red mark. Its painful thats why i was angry. I just wanted you to show me that you cared after all this. Just a question to ask if im still hurting. Is it too much? I have a reason why i always asked you if you love me anot because i dont always feel your love. it feels like a one sided thing sometimes. I guess you were right with the amount of love you have for me. One freaking Dollar is how much you love me - you showed me that today. Now i know that you aint lying whenever you said that amount. Everytime you say you love me is it jut words? If that is the case then wont that be empty words, then why bother saying it? if you really love, dont just say it. Use action and prove it.

To the world you are one person, but to me you are the world.
but i guess, To you I am just another person from the world.

boredom kills

its been super duper boring just staring at the laptop reading up on information about crabs and nothing but that. my report is still hanging there. 2700 plus words and im happy. but there is still so many sections to do. filter, protein skimmer, nitrogen cycle, nitrifying bacteria and results, observations blah blah blah. i hate writing report and i cant add in we, i, us. which makes it harder when i like to used them. lol.

nvm about that though

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
to all fathers out there (:

and stupid crabs i ate you today! as in your species! super shiok. chilli crab = yum yum

i miss my baby. havent seen him real life for 2 days now. i love him (:

inhouse Saturday

I'm so bored. Pissed with my lappy for not being able to play sim3 - thank goodness my desktop could play. Did report till 3 plus ytd and it's killing me. the boredom is like argh. no words can explain it. Baby is doing his report also at home, thus not meeting up. Did quite abit of work, and entertained myself with sims3 but i want to get out of the house and have fun ):

damn it why did i reject going out with Joshua and Meiting?! i should have just went. Like that i can get more entertained than being at home ALONE playing sims 3 and trying to do my report. This sucks man.

i can never stay home alone for long. i would just die. and apparently im dying alr.

i just super love him (:

rants

i fucking hate cramps. it just suck like fuck. NB lar. I guess my moodswing is up so better watch out. :X

anyways, was feeling really sad when boyfriend didnt accompany me to school. It's the first time after like 11 months already - FIRST TIME that i asked him to accompany me somewhere/ go with me to school and i got rejected. I know from the very start he didnt want to go maybe due to the weather and his little flu that make him made that decision. but i wanted him to go with me. I was in pain and needed someone to be there for me but he didnt. i couldnt stop the tears from dripping down my eyes when im on the train. i hate ut. why must they make it on wednesday where there aint school? cramps just sucks - its killing me. And i have to go home on my own later after ut. apparently im typing this while having ut cause i finished like way too early but ive got to meet Jabez and passed him the manual so WTF! i super hate everyone now. and and that jonathan ): my sims 3 is nver coming to me ): damn long already and im still waiting. nvm abt that rants its the moodswing building in again. fuck fuck fuck. i just want everything to stop. especially the pain.

UPDATES

1. My family is back since 06-june-2009
- they had a great time in camp while i had a great time in Singapore at home.

2. Brother drove us to church without daddy. - 07-june-2009
met baby for movie - Blood the last vampire at plaza singapura

3. Mum's 49th birthday - 08-june-2009
- had this cake from her boss. pictures with gabriel.

4. I went for like so many driving lessons at one go. tiring but worth it.
- i got my Driving License already (: - 09-june-2006
- First attempt!! yayness!!
- envy me!! oops!
also had birthday dinner with Mum, Gaius and Gabriel.
- and and and my clothes flew into my room today - the ones i ordered online (:

5. Went to Jurong East / Chinese Garden Swimming complex. - it is at chinese garden lar! - 12-june-2006
- with Baby, michelle, Mummy[referring to baby's mum] and xue wei
- super fun. slide is fast - super fast! haha. but all 4 of us had fun!
6. Went to Escape themepark - 13-june-2006
- with Baby, michelle, Mummy[referring to baby's mum] and xue wei
- i got super duper wet when i sat the wild wild wet ride. apparently i sat behind thus i got the wettest. Baby wasnt that wet.
- Michelle super cute when she said yahoo to sitting roller coaster again. (:
- had Tei Sushi ~ we ate to our fill

7. I drove to brunch and to church first time - woohoo - 14-june-2009
- scary cos I used to driving a manual car and thus when drving daddy's auto car it's scary.
- but i overcome the fear and drove my family to church! yippeee
- Watch Ghost of Past Girlfriends with Baby [nice show - worth watching]

overall that's it.
anyways its been 11months with baby now and we are still very much in love. this will last definitely. (: thanks baby for spending all the time with me. i love you.

In the end. Im home alone.
"I wont let my baby be home alone" - i guess its all words only.

Nvm. Ive got my mickey mouse and winnie the pooh. I will survive.

): im scared to be home alone.

feeling

i somehow feel lonely today. Not because baby is sleeping now. or because im alone in the room with my 2 little hammy. But But But, the feeling that my whole family isnt in Singapore just makes me feel that way. This is the 3rd time though that Im being left alone. I made my choice not to go thus haha.

Sometimes it's just weird knowing that you are going home to a place where no one is waiting for you. No one other than you is in the house. I guess this is called taking forgrunted [dont know how to spell] Lol , where i dread going back home previously. Now i want to go home but there aint anyone.

I miss them all of a sudden.

Anyways. my hammies Blacky and Snowball